Retrospection, 2014!

I was thinking what to write, what's there to write rather...But, the Journey so far has been so eventful... That this place is not enough to fill at all...Why a single day brings so many events...What kind of Hero, I am! (Monomyth: Everyone is a Hero in his or her Life! )
When I look back...a stubborn one, who won't give up easily on her dreams!Shouldn't I be working? But, work will wait... Becoz at the moment i just wanted to write...Was about to give up, when I realized that I am good at applying Methods: Autofiction and Monomyth... clear about that...That's where I find my pleasure, and no one can take that bliss away from me... My mother says Knowledge is the only rich that no one can take away from you....She is always right!It was discovering myself, in one of my School friend, my alter ego, who zoomed into my Life and struck the cord, which had become silent: Amu! Helped me discover my strength, as finally words flowed...And, I was on...felt happy again... Felt happy in expressing the WORDS, which had been elusive till now! She filled the gap of a girl friend I ever wanted to have... Touch Wood!Had my Smart phone with my own money....Yipeee! hehhehehe... The only thing which had spoiled me drastically this year... But, had also been a means of great help! Talked to someone, whose words transformed me into some other world... Brought me close to Nature, to Birds, WORDS too... Made me realize how happy they make me...But, then it was just a Chimera! So, freeing and letting it Go...Don't know if THE Chimera will stay in the resident of my heart though....hahhahaha... Happy as a free bird. and want the same for all...Maybe, they are the ways of Life to teach us Lessons, which were suppose to be learned!
My Guide, Nandita  Madam and Urmi Madam have showed me the way, without which I would have been lost!  Got selected for a paper presentation at IIT, Guwahati and made a trip alone to Guwahati,...Met two lovely research scholars, talented too... Himani and Rituporna: Full of Life and Fun! Gave my presentation and relaxed! Not that difficult at all...Met Tulia at Guwahati, a research scholar at IIT... our Landlord's grand daughter, a high-spirited, lovely and independent lady now... We meet always like that...Suddenly... out of no where, in different walks of Life, feel there is some deep connection between me and her...Have always felt that! Met many friends here who stood by me, and understood me: Amu, Ann, Shraddha, Sarfaraz, Rajlaxmi and then Georgiee, Anu, Shikri, who were always there... Amlan Mohapatra, the Pole Star of my Life, who has been there throughout, and has always been there when I needed him... especially when I was lost technologically, have learnt a lot from him! (Please forgive if I left someone out...) Was Happy to see others Happy, and if I could be one of the reasons, it has made me double Happy! My students have made me realize, what I mean to them! And, they make me realize that there is so much work to do...Work, is revolving...want to write...keep on writing, as if there is no tomorrow... It makes me forget the whole world around me! Nothing heals like the Word itself! I was Happy for some good news that came my way, which had made me Happy! And, waiting for other-yet-to-arrive good news too... hehehhehehe...Met some GEM of a person, making me realize that Good people do exist! Felt they are The Guardians Of Life and Nature! Journey so far has not been easy, and I know there are other storms to face too! But, Life! Please listen... I am ready, and I am not quitting yet! Hope this new year materializes everyone's dream, including mine... and keeps everyone Happy! Crossing my fingers for the dreams to come true, including my Near and Dear ones too! Happy New Year, 2015!

Anger: Fire spitting heads!

Our respected elders say that we get angry because we have young blood and it boils easily…hehehehhe… I used to get puzzled, as a young kid as to what does it mean…But, maybe I understand that now! When I see people around me getting angry…
Let’s discuss what’s Anger first?
Anger is when we are hungry; please note hungry… hehheheh…
How do we react? The first reaction we have is shouting, slam doors, storm out and even sit in our Kop Bhavans…
(From Ramayan: Kop Bhavans is also known as the chamber of wreath. In olden days, in king's palaces there used to be a small room where a queen went to show her anger to Raajaa (King) when she wanted Raajaa to fulfill her any wish. She wore only old torn clothes, with loose hair and sat or lie down on bare floor. Since all this was not proper for a queen to be like this, Raajaa usually had to fulfill her wish. That is why Kaikeyee adopted this way and got succeeded, in bringing exile to Ram…)
In childhood, I used to have my Kop Bhavan, (felt like Queen-Gaalfuli-puffed up cheeks) because I didn’t like hurting people and I spoke things I didn’t meant, so sat in one room…that’s what we do, isn’t it? Oh! Yes, there was a topping as well…I didn’t used to eat during the time of anger to control my anger, I fasted and made my mother fast, she loved me and so she won’t eat too… Now, I think how stupid I used to be… heheheheh…
What are the two kinds of anger?
When we see something wrong, unfair and undeserved around us? Or even when our wishes are not fulfilled… Now, there are two kinds of anger to highlight on: One is Productive and the other is Mismanaged Anger…
Productive Anger is when we stand up for something which is right, speak, don’t stand still and be one of the dumb onlookers, but in a matter-of-fact manner, and when you do that in a cool manner, you bring positive changes in and around you…try and add a touch of humor, it’s one of the best spices that resides in the brain…
Mismanaged Anger is counterproductive and can be unhealthy. Its intense, out of control, misdirected, overly aggressive, lead to poor decision making and problem solving, problems with relationship and at work, and the most adverse effect is we have on our health…
What could be the possible Solution then?
My elder maternal uncle (MamaG) used to see me angry (Short-tempered I was!) and suggested to take deep breaths and count in a reverse manner, I never used to follow then. But, now I do! Drinking water is an instant solution! Isn’t that we do when the fire is around, same goes for anger too, it’s the fire within which needs to cool down. And, never bunk on your food! I never make my mother fast again, if she is angry or I am angry, I cool myself off and prepare food for all of us! How can you ever think of putting the person in pain, you are in Love with! I love her a lot! And, then the problem is deal with afterwards in a matter-of-fact manner! Productive anger is when you present your views in a matter-of-fact manner, without losing your cool! Even making people laugh, when you are doing it! If you can do that, I mean presenting your logic while making people around you laugh! You are just a Wow, there! (Please note it needs practice: so be Humorous first…hehhehe) Be the Star! I have learnt a lot from my Uncle and elder brother and sister too! They speak logic and that too in a cool manner! I love their way of managing things, especially my Uncle, who does his bit for all, including the society; extremely emotional, yet logical, full of humour, down-to-earth and very loving! If I talk in a matter-of-fact tone, most of the credit goes to my Uncle, he is an inspiration! Maybe I will write about him separately someday!
Of course, my RCST students, a residential college, beginning of my career…they have seen and tolerated my anger… hehhehe… They made me laugh and laugh and laugh, and made me patient, now students who can make you laugh, you can think to what extent they are sharp! They made me patient and cool, too. Even in Adyant, they wouldn’t let me be serious for long and crack a joke to make me laugh! My students,from RCST to ABIT... whom I have thought to give something back through whatever I have learned, gifted me patience and laughter, my cousins; maternal brothers..and Mayank and Priyanshu Parasar who have made me laugh, and taught me that art of living is in Laughing!
hehehhehehe…
So, drink water, eat your food and laugh out loud in order to talk logic! Don't carry your anger forward too. It will keep you disturbed and won't let you sleep... Forgive and Forget, start your day afresh!
I am paying my gratitude to all those people who have made me laugh, my friends too!
(P.S. I will be happy if you suggest some other tips to keep the anger in control! Happy Reading!)

Carpe Diem: Follow the Star!

Good Morning!
Woke up in the morning, but was weighed down! Why was I feeling so filled up today? Well, Maa made tea today...finished my morning ablution and off we went to morning walk. Saw a pair of birds, was unable to recognize it, felt like some kind of thrush...(orange-black-white) Saw lights, artificial made star and decoration in the Church and in English medium school...Looked beautiful! And, thought about it's symbolic significance of it: (especially Star) Immediately it reminded me of the story I had heard always in school time. The wise man following the brightest star for direction...where the Wise Men from East follow the bright star to reach Jesus’ birth place, and the star hovering over the stable where He was born...Reminded me of the Traditional Carol, we used to hear on the last day of our school before our Winters Holiday:
"Away in a manger, no crib for his bed,
the little Lord Jesus laid down his sweet head.
The stars in the bright sky looked down where he lay,
the little Lord Jesus asleep on the hay...."
The message I used to feel was; Live Simply, Humbly and with Love!For this is how he wants us to Live, with all kindness in heart, and for all fellow being,though his sleep is awakened by the cattles, he doesn't cries...How strange it reminded me of the similar circumstance of the birth of Lord Krishna, he too lives amongst the cow-herds... the name also sounds similar to me Christ-Chris-Krishna...Feel all religion teaches one concept: Live simply, humbly...with Love for all! :)We all are Stars of our Life, in real sense Hero of our Lives.... let that be a direction enough to let us do something good...Moved forward to see cattle egret, facing away from each other and definitely feeling cold, Black Drongo surfing the sky...noticed a pair of white rumped shama, moving from tree to tree, and was Lucky enough to notice Oriental birds...Good day and take care... :)May you be the Star of you Life, and may it be Brightest!!!Leading you to be the Goodwill of Mankind! :)
[P.S.: I can't finish the writing, without writing the Traditional Carol in full: (One of my Favorites...)

Away in a manger, no crib for his bed,
the little Lord Jesus laid down his sweet head.
The stars in the bright sky looked down where he lay,
the little Lord Jesus asleep on the hay.

The cattle are lowing, the baby awakes,
but little Lord Jesus no crying he makes.
I love thee, Lord Jesus! Look down from the sky,
and stay by my side until morning is nigh.

Be near me, Lord Jesus; I ask thee to stay
close by me for ever, and love me I pray.
Bless all the dear children in thy tender care,
and fit us for heaven to live with thee there.

Hinduism or as such all religion says one thing as we pray: Almighty always keep your eye on us, With whatever name you take of his...And, that's what I felt in this carol too at the end, to keep an eye on us always:Stay near by me, Love me, be close to me, and let me stay with you forever, for there is the Bliss! And, when we think that God exist in mankind we will never hate our fellow beings, because it would remind us that we are being close to him... when we would carry a feeling of Love towards other!
{Carpe Diem: Carpe diem is a Latin aphorism usually translated to "seize the day", taken from a poem in the Odes (book 1, number 11) in 23 BC by the poet Horace. (Wikipedia) It means "seize the day," according to the words I have put in, it means seize the day, as you follow the star which shines in your heart! Happy Reading! :) Information furnished for my Winter-bound-Lazy Kids :D <3 :) )}]

Lily Day: A Self-Talk!

Good Morning :)
hehehhehe...I am late... :D
So you guessed it right,
Bunked my morning walk... :D
At times I can be lazyyyyyy... :(
But, I shouldn't be... doing self-talk, aren't I?
But, that's what we do... we talk to our-self...
I know many of my friends and my adorable kids do, too...
Read something positive... that if you talk to yourself, never talk negative things...
Why? Your mind is listening, and it will make you sad, depress and unhappy...
Life is of One day, Live it to the fullest, spread Happiness around, Motivate Good things, appreciate small things, Be cheerful for the smallest thing you got to be Happy of...
Now, what is that Happiness, when someone says positive things about you and around you, make it YOURS! :)
Those are the Small Happiness that God/Supreme being send us our way,
But, we fail to notice it, because our eyes are on Bigger things...
I don't say Bigger Events are not important, but they don't happen daily...
So, why can't we be happy in smaller things that come our way...
Who has seen tomorrow: Neither have I, nor you! :)
So, if you are angry on someone or something, or Sad... Let it go!
I know it's difficult said than done...
But, then you are your master, how you decide to Live is your Choice...
At the end of the day, forgive others and yourself...
(Yourself? Why? What did I do??? You were lazy... and didn't go to morning walk.... :D :D :D... If tomorrow is there, then I will Carpe Diem... :)
Do whatever is to be done, throughout the day... But, if you failed in completing a particular task, then Forgive yourself, and keep it for next day, if there is any...You need your Beautiful Sleep after all, and you can't have that if you are not forgiving yourself First... :D )
For it keeps you Young, Happy and Ready for the next day... ;) :D :)Be Happy in Small things that come your way...I have two to be happy today: A Good Compliment and...shhh... :D Mum's the Word... :)Many more to come... :D
Have a Lily Day, ahead! :D :D :D
I Quote:

"It's Not Growing Like a Tree"

"It is not growing like a tree
In bulk doth make Man better be;
Or standing long an oak, three hundred year,
To fall a log at last, dry, bald, and sere:
A lily of a day
Is fairer far in May,
Although it fall and die that night—
It was the plant and flower of light.
In small proportions we just beauties see;
And in short measures life may perfect be."
                                              by Ben Jonson.

The Moody

Nothing is as beautiful,
As the rays of the Sun in a Wintry morning...
Nothing uplifts the mood,
Then reading humorous words enchantingly put in an Humorous Article...
Nothing uplifts you the way your best friends trying to cheer you up with jokes,
You would never have thought of...
The Final Bliss coming in seeing the birds in flight,
Inspiring you to spread your wings and fly high,
Feel the wing, feel the wind,
Be one with Nature,
For their your Soul resides...

Friends Forever!!!

Long years and a long gap of having not met our friend,
Speculation and excitement ran high in us,
and, when we meet....
Warmth of Friendship and Love spreads around US….
Time almost as if has stopped,
When we laughed out loud, at our own silly jokes.
Felt zinged, catching up with each other,
While, making a visit down our memory lane!

While, Amu’s sensitivity and Love oozed sweetness around us!
Felt absolutely awe-struck by Srivalli’s elephantine memory of having remembered all her school friends,
And, as if that’s not enough, she leaves me speechless with her reminding me,
Of having read a Hindi poem in just one breath…
Though time flies, and leaves us with Good Memories,
With friends so sweet and loving,
one feels nothing less than one entity!!!

Father's Day!!!

June 15, 2014 at 11:28am

Father’s Day:
Our childhood flew, watching you toil so hard!
Days and night appeared almost the same,
when we looked up to you.
And, every time we were infirm,
you stayed up all night with us.
And, was up and about for your business,
the very next day.
And, today when we fight on petty issues and end up laughing,
Life is blissful in your smile!

We have grown up seeing you fighting a battle of will,
to make both ends meet,
and, while doing so…
You always kept an eye on our health and well-being,
Standing tall for our families.
You are all the strength that we look upon.

Your forte lies in learning new things,
be it health-issues, horoscopes or English.
Didi has always been your sweetheart,
As you shared your learning’s and knowledge with her.
A disciplinarian! Yet, never short of Love and Care.
Be it for us, or for the society!
Today, as we still fight our battles to bring stability in our Life.
We feel stronger and better,
to have your constant blessing and Love bestowed on all of us!!!
You are our IDEAL,
And, will remain the Armour of our Life,
“Papa” (The Father) to us, forever!
Happy Father's Day!!!

Mother's Day!

No love on this earth, can define in words 

our Love and Respect for you,
It’s the Unconditional Love that you keep bestowing on us,
That keeps us alive and kicking!
You are the epitome of discipline and strictness,
And, though amazingly practical,
 you get tensed if any of us are in pain!

While you share your heart out with Didi,
You have an uncanny telepathy with BhaiG,
And, when it comes to me,
Unconditionally protective and possessive about me,
Wanting to blow off, anyone who hurts me....
We know you Love us a lot!

We can never forget
what pain you had undergone to get us educated
With Life being a series of ups and downs!
We are what we are today, because of you.
You being our pillar of strength, when we lose HOPE!
Being the youngest, I have always loved your Loving rebuke,
because that's when your Unconditional Love flows....

Today, as we are settled in three different directions
the only thing we fight for, is your presence.
While, seeing you Smiling and Laughing is a bright sunny experience,
It’s your presence and blessings,
that makes Our Life a Paradisaical Experience!

Siblings Lane: Happy Siblings Day!

I fall back into time and remember
how loving and caring both of you were!
What great time we had together,
Be it our Verbal Duel in English,
Or, joyful ride in rickshaw to School! 

After school snacking of Kachori and Gupchup,
Or green lime soda of 10 paise!
I was so lucky to be the youngest;
as I kept on saving, while you spent it all!

While, YOU had a gala time pulling my leg
I like an idiot believed it all!

Jealous of the chemistry both of you shared
I failed to understand how protective you both were!
You blew off the cobwebs of stage fear in me,
Instilling Confidence and Motivating me!

You groomed me so well
that I tasted success, with anything around.
Be it Debate, Declamation or Sports ground!
A fire brand yourself, instilled the Fire in me,
Motivating, “Never Give Up, Darling! Just Carry on!”

I wore my first jeans, because of you Didi,
And, can never forget the pain, you took to get it done!
You had a style of your own,
with a strong conviction for sure!
Your taste in clothes and colour so good,
that it has always kept me hooked!

Reading books and calligraphy became your forte
but, your flair for English, will always keep me captivated!
You are my Icon of being, and I know
I still have a long way to go!

BhaiG was so shy and reserved
Yet, he always understood as to what I felt!
I had idolized him for so long
that I know for sure, he could never be wrong!
I always feel so entranced, when he is around,
that words evaporate in air,
whenever I try to speak or share! 

“Live life simply, apply whatever you understand,
Have an opinion of your own and take a stand!”
Trust me; your lessons have helped me a lot!
Left awestruck with a power persona that you are!

Words can never suffice my regard for both of YOU,
Blessed and lucky to have Siblings like YOU!
On this Siblings Day, I want to say
I want to remain your sibling, for any number of births I take!
Proud and Happiness comes from YOU,
Happy Siblings Day, to both of YOU!

Unreal World!

Lives’ so colourful, but are they real?
Some people smile, some just chatter away and some remain neutral,
What’s this world that we live in,
Every time we meet someone new, or someone we have known,
We behave as if All’s Well with US and the World,
But, all we do is wear different mask for different occasion,
Why this pretension?
When we all were born the same!
Life used to be VIBGYOR,
But, the only shades available now is Grey!!!
There was plenty of time as a Child,
We lived like Humans and Cared about others,
But, out of time, now….
One feels like machines….
Real Smiles which used to heal and soothe,
Got Phony!!!
What happened to Natural Beauty?
Did it undergo Global Warming too, with the Nature…?
People find pleasure in others Pain,
When, it used to be Compassion and Care....
Are we living or are we already in Dead Man’s Island!!!
What’s left in human life???
If we cease to Share and Care!!!